if only
days like these. and just on tumblr and stuff. Where everything makes me feel so ugly. inside and out. I feel like i dont even know my personality cause it changes so much depending on who im with. And when im around you, i feel like a complete idiot and loser. When everything you say is so perfect and wonderful and im just, me. I dont find it surprising that you like her not me. Shes funny pretty outgoing and everything im not. But i do know that no one could love you like i do. i want to know you. I never forget anything you say, and i can even predict what you sometimes do. I want to know your favorite things and what makes you laugh. The first thought when you wake up and your last thought of the day. What your dreams are and how you plan to accomplish them. You dont understand how you affect me so much everyday. I can tell when you’re having a bad day or just tired. I want to make you feel better, but its not like i know what to say. You find comfort in music or just being alone. And playing guitar and piano. You inspire me so much i even started playing again. We have so much in common, so if you really knew me, you just might understand how perfect we are for each other. We find the same things funny, we have the same favorite color, and almost every song i hear reminds me of you. heck i even have a playlist with our songs. Song we have somehow shared between us. even if it was just a casual conversation or a facebook post. im so fascinated in everything you say. your voice. your face, your smell, your hair, your eyes, your smell, your laugh, you everything, you. It kills me so much to just sit back and act like its nothing when you flirt with her. And everyday i try to remind myself that if its meant to be, it will happen. I pray that God’s on my side of life..
